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i'm taking an exam that's supposed test my professional readiness tomorrow. i'm supposed to evaluate the most appropriate and effective response to 30 scenarios. the idea behind the rubric is that a professional ready applicant to medical school should know how to respond responsibly and according to certain traits and competencies, like openness to growth, compassion, responsibility and initiative, transparency, ethical judgement, resilience to adversity, identifying solutions to problem. all the good stuff. basically, they're trying to see if i can fit into a suit and tie. if i can sit down and be a good student.
my whole life i've been acting as a good student. told to sit still, raise my hand, listen to my classmates and my teacher, share my belongings, apologize for my mistakes, not raise my voice, ask instead of demand. a good student is careful, diligent and eager.
it's kind of repugnant, to be honest. the thought of being that actually makes me sick. i know it too well.
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